I
never saw him wearing anything except a white t-shirt, blue jeans, and the
ubiquotus boy’s footwear of the time, black and white Keds tennis shoes. He was
a year or so older than I, but pale and smaller, with a shock of floppy blond
hair. He lived with parents I never met down the river road a bit closer to the
Sangamon than my house. He didn’t go to school either, a wondrous achievement
in my nine-year-old estimation, not having to deal with the boredom, peer
pressure and politics of grade three.
I
first saw him as he came walking up the road past my house, as I was in the
yard struggling to realign the handlebars of my Huffy heavyweight, knocked out
of shape by a minor crash into the ditch in front of Randy Clinton’s house as I
attempted to avoid running over his mother’s yappy little dog. He, the boy, not
the dog, stood in the road and watched my labor for a moment. I said, “Hi,
Kid,” and he smiled and came closer. I never even knew his name, but I did
realize that he was different. Kid was not like the rest of us.
He
didn’t talk much, but he smiled a lot. And he hung around, but not like Danny
Kobel’s demanding little brother, Mud. Kid was not intrusive. If anything, I
found him to be an inducer of contentment. He spent most of the afternoon
watching me fix the handlebars and then the fender, asking no questions, saying
little, but smiling as if observing the feeble reconstruction of the front end
of my Huffy was more than just a way to pass the time, but something both
fascinating and uplifting. When I asked him what he did instead of going to
school he said, “Sometimes I set, sometimes I mess around. I got a pogo stick.”
We parted company near dusk, Kid walking away down River Road into the
deepening gloom.
The
next day was a school day, and when I arrived home I found him propped up
against the big Elm tree on the edge of my front yard. We sat and leaned
against it for over an hour, talking a little and enjoying Spring during a time
when sitting outside in the grass did not bring worries of ticks, stained
clothing, or dangerous passers-by. Upon questioning, he confessed to me that
his father worked and his mom “done the dishes.” He had no brothers and sisters
and had moved to my hometown from another small metropolis called Farmer City.
He was never around on weekends, but for the balance of spring, unless it was
raining, when I’d come home from school Kid would be waiting.
During
summer, when I wasn’t occupied with the other members of my little group of
river rats and small town troublemakers or doing farm work, sometimes Kid would
go fishing with me. My grandfather had spent considerable time and effort
teaching me the art of bank fishing with cane poles, the necessity of quiet, and
the value of patience. I was good at it. On our first venture to the river, Kid
confessed he’d never gone fishing. I was astounded. Everybody had gone fishing.
Everybody I knew fished. But not Kid. On our walk, I explained the rules. Don’t
stomp up and down the bank. No loud talking. Don’t throw anything in the water.
Sit still, watch your line or your bobber, shut up, and wait. He blew me away.
His patience and ability to not only be still, but to sit absolutely
motionless, was amazing. The only giveaway he was even conscious was that
smile.
He was
not perfect, however. He could never manage to put night crawlers on the hook
without sticking his thumb, and he couldn’t see the line well enough to
deadline fish for channel cats. But he had the self-control it took to watch a
bobber dance sideways against the current and disappear into the muddy depths
without panicking and attempting to set the hook too soon. He understood that
he could not help carry the cane poles because they were my grandfather’s, and
if one got hit against a tree and the tip broken off, it was an eighty-mile
round trip to replace the type of cane pole he favored. An eighty-mile trek in
a 1949 Plymouth was not a journey to be taken lightly. I did, however, allow
him to carry the carefully prepared doughball and the diligently collected
worms. The first fish he caught with me, the first one he ever caught for that
matter, was about a ten-pound carp, shining golden in the sun on a line
suspended from a twelve-foot cane pole…a feat requiring considerable will and
strength. He got it done, tackling the carp as it flopped around in the weeds
on the bank and, with instruction, even got the limp piece of clothesline I
used as a stringer through the gill and mouth of the fish and tied it off on a
tree root at the waterline. Had I made such a catch, vocal celebration would
have been inevitable, but not Kid. Just that smile.
That autumn, a week or two from Halloween, he
was gone. No Kid waiting under the big Elm anymore. I learned later that his
family had just moved away. He and I had never cut corn out of beans together,
never ridden bikes or played baseball with each other, never fired .22’s,
exchanged secrets, ridden horses, smoked stolen cigarettes, or a dozen other
things that my brat-pack and I had done. I can’t even say we were really friends,
but I missed him. My grandfather, who appreciated children as much as any adult
I have ever known, spoke of him once.
“Aw, he warn’t quite right, David,”
he said. “But I believe he was a fine boy.”
I
hadn’t thought of Kid in fifty years, I suppose, until the other day a
television show brought him to mind. My granddad was correct. He wasn’t quite
right. He was slow, didn’t go to school, and all that, but it strikes me now
that education, income, acquisitions, and achievement cannot bring any of us
what Kid just naturally had. Peace. I knew it then, even if I didn’t realize
it. It was right there in that smile.
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